This is the horror of depression. Logically I know I have friends I could reach out to. I don't want to. Or I can't. It is just too hard. Breathing is too hard.
I know that some of you are going through some really rough stuff yourself and could use my support. I apologise but I am all used up right now. I am tired. And I want nothing more than to be left alone. I love you but I just can't be bothered right now. I don't care about you because I don't care about anything right now. I know, harsh.
I have been used and lied to and sick and in pain...and it just needs to stop. But it's not going to because that is my life. So I am shutting off right now. I am going to be selfish and alone and self-destructive.
About Me
- Jacqui Michelle
- I suffer from but am not defined by bipolar disorder, fibromyalgia, and narcolepsy. I also have 7 herniated disks in my spine. I lead a full though not always active life. I take meds when I have to but avoid them when I can. I am struggling to not let my disabilities take over my life. I write all my crazy thoughts out so it won't get so crowded in my head.
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