Hypo-mania is always such a mixed bag for me. On the one hand, I'm cycling, which can't be good. It throws my sleep schedule off. Makes me bouncy and irritable. I am prone to shouting. Everything stresses me out.
However, I am also tearing through projects at work. Getting out more and being social. Making up for lost time with my friends. Feeling the pain of my fibromyalgia less. (I don't think I am in less pain, I just generally don't notice it as much.)
Is it possible to be this ecstatic/happy and worried/panicked at the same time? Apparently for my hamster-wheel run brain it is.
This is made simpler and more hard by the fact that I am not currently medically treating my bipolar disorder. I take absolutely no stabilizing medications. I have had bad reactions to almost all of them so gave up on them 3 years ago.
I watch what I eat, where I go, who I talk with. I make myself have a regular as fiber weekly schedule. I go to bed and wake up at the same time almost every day. Or at least I did. This use to be enough. But with this upward swing I may need more help again.
About Me
- Jacqui Michelle
- I suffer from but am not defined by bipolar disorder, fibromyalgia, and narcolepsy. I also have 7 herniated disks in my spine. I lead a full though not always active life. I take meds when I have to but avoid them when I can. I am struggling to not let my disabilities take over my life. I write all my crazy thoughts out so it won't get so crowded in my head.
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